This is it

Day by day i think i am more alone than i was the day before.I think every day about the sense of my life,and i don't know if there is really any sense...I know i have the big part of the guilt and it's my fault that i have no friends and i don't have any close people...I've noticed that people look at me different than they looked couple of days ago.I don't touch anybody and this way i provoke them to do the things they do.How will anybody react if he was in my place?I need an advice, but having nobody close i don't know where to get it.