Sunday, March 3, 2013

Out of stress and ready to go

It has been a hard week for me, but i feel like my mind is back to the place it was before and now i feel balanced and strong.I had hard time at work but i think beginning with the next week i will get used to it and i will start to work harder. My job helps me a lot , and i really care about it and i realize it drew me out of the black hole i was before. There i have what to do and there i get distracted from the daily routine.This week my best friend got back from Romania. We still don't talk, but i am a very good friend with his brother. I thought that it would be easier without him, and maybe i was right, i can't say for sure now. I am waiting for some stepts from him but i don't know if i will ever get them. I don't want to talk to him and i think our friendship is getting to the end , but still , even if i don't want to talk to him about this, and i keep my head straight, i still have hope. Maybe i should make the first step? I don't know, because it's not the first time that i do this and it helps only for a short period of time. I will try now to focus on my last exams and forget about everybody. The main problem for me that has to be solved sounds like this: Should i try to get my friend back and to have a backup and  support everytime i need, even if i didn't got much of it until now, or should i try to go in this life alone, and to take this as a lesson that improved my abilities to know people from different sides. I really don't know and i will think a lot about this.