This last week was the one that caused me to thing globally about a lot of things. Everything that happened these last couple of days changed my attitude towards how i was treating other people that were close to me all this time.
The most important fact that made me think like this was the situation with my best friend.I will detalize it so everybody could understand how i feel now, and why.
Everything started with the exams we had all this month, but not only because of them. So, my best friend is a freshman and these were his first exams.I started to explain him what should he do in order to have good results and i supported him everytime he needed, but i was thinking that he wasn't really interested in what i was doing . At the beginning of this month we argued about some stuff and we weren't talking to each other.When he started his first exam i was just walking by his room and i have heard that somebody tries to help him. I entered the room and was just wandering if he was ok. The guy that tried to help him couldn't find anything useful for my friend, so, eventhough i wasn't talking to him i just felt that i should help him no matter what . I was looking in all the rooms for the exercises he needed for his exam until i found something useful.I did all i could but i didn't heard any thankfull words from him.
The next day i decided that we should talk and we talked with him a couple of hours about this situation until we decided that we shouldn't argue and that our friendship worths more than this. The next couple of days i had my first exam, so i was trying to prepare for it, but suddenly we understood that we have exams with my best friend in the same day.I told him that i won't be able to help him during the exam, but i can help him now and explain everything that's not clear.Those couple of days passed but he didn't care about his exam, but the day before it at 4 am when i was going to sleep he enters the room with a sad face, with the words:"Now i understand what kind of friend you are".I was very mad about this and i was explaining him that it was only his fault and that he had plenty of time before to come and ask me for help.This time i felt the same thing as before, so at 4 a.m. in the morning (even if i had my exam at 9 a.m.) i started to help him and explain everything he couldn't understand.It helped him a lot and he thanked me and he was very happy, and i was pleased that all i was explaining him at 4 a.m. didn't passed by.
A week passed, now i had my third exam and i also needed a lot of time to prepre for it. The night before the exam aproximately at 1 a.m i came to my friend's room and asked for my camera charger.He was so busy with playing his computer game that he didn't even heard what i said.When i asked for the second time he told me to take it and go away cause he was busy. I went to the university the next day, i wrote my exam with success but then i understood that i don't need such friends like him, so i went and talked to him about this. He said that he will never change for anybody and if i want i can accept him, if i dont its my problem.These words made me even more angry and i decided that our friendship is over.But this last week, everybody left home for a couple of weeks, only i stayed because i knew he needs my support even if we weren't talking so i decided to stay.
Before our exams we were making plans where we will go to have fun after we finish and we decided to go in another city to one of his old friends and to hang out there.But this last week, he decided to ask somebody else to go with him because he thought i don't talk to him this means i don't want to go anywhere . This was the last moment that pushed me to make this decision, that i don't really need such friends and that this was a fake friendship. I decided to talk to him for the last time and to tell my best friend everything i think. I told him that i thought about his words and i said that i really don't need a friend like this, meanwhile explaining him all the situation above.I think this time i took the correct decision and yesterday i left that house and came home, leaving him alone there.
In my opinion real friends support each other no matter what , and this is how i was acting, but he was acting totally opposite.I made a conclusion that better be alone with a lot of friends and focus on the job you have, instead of living with fake thoughts that you have a best friend, but you never know when he is gonna betray you. I am sure that this is definetely and i wont try to make good friends any more because now i know how it is to loose them.
