The sad reality

I thought that my comeback will bring a lot more happiness than i expected. But it just made my loneliness much painful . All of my friends have changed the attitude towards myself. I thought everybody missed me, but without me everybody was living his life even better than it was before. I think i need a bigger change, and this wasn't enough. I think i have to go abroad and begin a new life from 0. I have to change my behavior and i think everybody will look at me from another angle. I think that the mistakes stay in me and only i am guilty of the way people act with me. The main problem is that i don't know from what to begin and every time i try to make a change i get bored and i get back my old behavior. Each time people think that when they comeback everybody was thinking only of them but the reality is that these are just big thoughts and it depends on us how people will meet us. When i left i tried to make all the people i care think about me and how much i'll miss them. I think that was a mistake. I always wanted to be famous and to make people talk about me, but i thought it would be easier :) Now i will try to work on my mistakes and now, when i realized i have to leave back the past and go into the future with the head straight up.